I dont think i will ever find love.

Im not like anyone else and the pain runs through me like a knife that cuts to the soul. My heart bleeds for Elisabeth everyday i wish i could just feel her skin and warmth just one more time. she was the world to me and I'm just sad that I was never the world to her. I know its crazy but i would still do anything for her. I miss you becca

I Believe That....

I have had an affirmation of thoughts over the past few days that somethings just don't work out and that life happens for a reason I really am happy for Rebecca but I will always love her no matter what.

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye 
Until you say goodbye


When i lost her i lost the best part of me I love you beccers 

Tonight I died a little but I'm happy

I feel like such a failure every thing I have ever done I have lost I've never been good enough I loved that girl so so much and I know i was never enough for her. I'm not good enough for anyone

I Four Letter word you

My heart breaks every day and the pain goes on while my heart has healed but I'm still dying without you near. Everytime i go out i realize how much i would of rather spent time with you and the person i trust more than anything. You say i don't know me but I will never stop loving you even if i have to wait 1000 years in darkness having the pain and torture rack my soul every second I love you and more than anything  Rwarrr.

What Makes Me, Me

I'm not what you call simple by any means I have a sense of complexity that no one has ever really gotten to know save but one. Elizabeth was her name and she is the most amazing girl who will always have my heart. I started to believe that she was the one girl I could trust my heart with. but it turned out i couldn't she  found my scars to be hideous. I feel all to often like the phantom that hides behind his mask. I have so much to offer but i hide because i have been rejected far to many times by the world. I really trusted her more than anything she was the one girl that didn't find my likes to be gay but cared. I'm just sorry that I couldn't make her feel happy. but she will always have my heart.